When I decided to fall inside me.

I am happy because I am using my quarantine in a good way. The idea of writing this blog comes to my mind when I was trying to find the reason why 1. I can't find free time. 2. I take so long to finish the work which is too easy. 3. I am that busy or just pretending. 4. And the important one is why every day disappears before I recognize it. 5. Every time I feel I can't wait for the moment and when the moment comes for which I was contiguously waiting and not even responding to my current surroundings and then I find my all excitement has gone. And I observe I lost a good amount of time which can be utilized in a great way.                                          There are so many such time losses that we never trapped or observed. Let's understand it with some examples . Imaging after a week is your final exam and you don't even know the subject's name. So you start making schedules, creating slots to study different subjects, eating time, recreation t

From where should I start. You know first I was keeping the title of this article "ESCAPE" but then I found the positive one. So the story starts like this  when we all were very young and this was the first time when we were going to make our first mistake. In my life, this incident took place at a very early age but I was not able to identify it then. This starts like this, As I was the bright student in my class till the 4th. And with great marks comes the great expectations of my family and teachers. "Rather I want to replace the word 'expectations' with the word 'burden'." Where were we,  Yup! So I was going to make my first mistake of my life. I remembered in class 2nd that day my Hindi teacher was taking the lecture and I forgot to complete the homework.  And as usual, she asked, "who didn't complete the homework." And for the first time, I was about to raise my hand. But one boy was sitting beside me raised his hand first and th

I love to observe things. This task is not easy. It requires tremendous point of views and deep thinking. This time a small curiosity born in my mind about what would non-living things think if they get this power? And the result of this experiment amazed me. After finding the blog topic, the next big thing was to decide what should I become and finally I end up with 1. MONEY 2. MOBILE PHONES 3. BOOKS 4. GOOGLE I just think how they are or they can affects or effects our lives. The whole process roast my brain but I love it. Now just believe that I am MONEY: One of my main reason for my birth was to end the  Barter System . I saw so many eras, changed from stones then gold, silver, other metal to paper and now digital. I saw tremendous changes in people who are with me and without me. The way of treating other people mostly depends on me instead of age, education, relationship. The most funny thing that I like in myself is that, "I WAS CREATED BY HUMAN

Today was the result day of my seniors. Microsoft has come to my college for selection. Everyone was having a fire in them, but all the fire which was ignited with sunrise get extinguished at sunset. Because that day was the result day. And the result was disastrous to hear. In the whole Computer science branch of B.Tech, only 8% got selected. Oh my God! Out of 1000 only 80 could secure their future. This forces me to find the problem. So I started thinking, and I found few reasons which were- • Interview process was too tough. • Students were not prepared. • Everything was pre-planned. • They all were electronics or mechanical students. • Students were only good . Yeah! I think I found it. My friends told me that I can teach anything using real-life examples. So here I go . . . . . Did you observe that Anyone gone for interviews Or for selection of sports Or for any contest Or for any participation event And say that I am good at everything but I didn't g

Many people died and didn't have any guts to follow their heart. That is why I decided " to read myself  ". Try it yourself, we can see anybody but without the help of any reflective a thing, we can't see ourselves. And the tragedy for me was you can't use any tool. It was feeling like finding the question paper first before finding answers. When I decided to do it, I feel it would be too easy to tell myself about me. But we can't eat coconut from outside of the core, similar I can't read myself only by observing what's happening today. So I have to start from a scratch and for that, I have to meditate and meditate to go as deep as I can. The interesting thing which I see was that I found more disappointment than I see around myself and the most painful thing I was the jack of all trades. The deeper I was going the deeper I was falling in front of me. And a thought " I AM USELESS " is revolving in my brain. That time, That time